Fallen Angels: Full Moon

Τρίτη 18 Μαρτίου 2014

Full Moon

...Και έχει πανσέληνο απόψε και είναι ωραία. Βασικά όχι σήμερα, έχει και δυο τρεις μέρες που έχουμε γεμάτο φεγγάρι και έπειτα, τις μέρες με πανσέληνο, σεληνιάζω όπως θα έλεγαν σε κάποιο βιβλίο αφού με επηρεάζει πολύ ψυχολογικά.
Καρκίνος βλέπετε. Που το στοιχείο μας θεωρείτε η ίδια η Σελήνη. Και πρόσφατα κάπου διάβασα πως το σηματάκι αυτό του Καρκίνου είναι ημισέληνος. Ούτε που το χα δει ποτέ έτσι :P
Δεν είναι κάτι καινούριο για μένα η Πανσέληνος. Την έχω συνηθίσει και τη συμπεριφορά μου και τις διαθέσεις που μου δημιουργεί πλέον.
Μου λείπει όμως το γεγονός ότι δεν μπορώ να κάτσω κάπου και να τη χαζέψω. Όπως κάνω κάθε καλοκαίρι. Στην Καλαμάτα. Στην παραλία. Εδώ μόνο από το παράθυρο του σπιτιού και δεν μου είναι αρκετό.
Το έχω ξαναναφέρει πως έχω μεγάλη αδυναμία στο φεγγάρι. Ίσως γι’ αυτό θεωρώ τον εαυτό μου περισσότερο παιδί της νύχτας γιατί λατρεύω να κάθομαι και να χαζεύω τον νυχτερινό ουρανό, αυτόν με τα γεμάτα αστέρια και το φεγγάρι στην όποια φάση του...
Είναι όμως που αυτές οι μέρες-νύχτες βασικά- μου θυμίζουν πολύ άτομα που δεν μπορώ να έχω κοντά μου είτε λόγω του ότι έχουν φύγει από τη ζωή, είτε λόγω ότι τα έχω χάσει από τη δική μου καθημερινότητα και ζωή. Και με πιάνει αυτή η μελαγχολία κάθε φορά. Και το μυαλό μου ανατρέχει σε διάφορες αναμνήσεις που έχω περάσει με όλα αυτά τα άτομα, έχοντας πάντα στην άκρη το γεγονός ότι τέτοιες αναμνήσεις δεν θα ξαναέρθουν. Εκεί ανάμεσα στα δάκρυα που κυλάνε σκέφτόμενη όλες αυτές τις αναμνήσεις, σκάει μύτη και ένα χαμόγελο, αυτό το χαμόγελο της νοσταλγίας και της σκέψης πως χαίρομαι που τουλάχιστον τις έζησα. Θα έπρεπε να μου είναι αρκετό. Αλλά ίσως και να μαι άπληστη, που θέλω περισσότερο. Που δεν μου φτάνει. Ίσως έτσι είμαστε οι άνθρωποι. Δεν μας φτάνουν οι συγκεκριμένες ευτυχισμένες στιγμές και αναζητούμε και άλλες.
Θα μπορούσα να πω όμως πως μετά από όλα αυτά που έχω περάσει, τις έχω ανάγκη όλες αυτές τις ευτυχισμένες στιγμές. Ίσως καινούριες, μιας και όλες αυτές που σκέφτομαι δεν μπορούν να ξανασυμβούν. Ποιος ξέρει, ίσως έρθουν άλλες όμορφες στιγμές που θα αναπολώ σε λίγα χρόνια από τώρα...

8 σχόλια:

Λίζα19 Μαρτίου 2014 στις 10:44 π.μ.
Κι εγώ "σεληνιάζομαι" τις μέρες με πανσέληνο, πάντα τη λάτρευα.. <3

Αν δεν κάνω λάθος, η σελήνη είναι ο κυβερνήτης του Καρκίνου(άρα εξηγούνται πολλά και για μένα που έχω ωροσκόπο Καρκίνο χιχι). Έχεις δίκιο, δεν αρκεί να βλέπεις μια πανσέληνο απ' το μπαλκόνι ή το παράθυρο σου. Τις πιο μαγικές πανσελήνους τις είδα κι εγώ στην παραλία..

Δεν θα ξεχάσω ποτέ την Κυριακή 13.08.2006 -εκείνον τον Αύγουστο που γη και σελήνη ήταν τόσο κοντά και το φεγγάρι φαινόταν τεράστιο- έκανα το πρώτο μου βραδινό μπάνιο, ανάψαμε φωτιά στην άμμο, φάγαμε σουβλάκια γύρω της, τρέχαμε, γελούσαμε, κάναμε αγώνες ταχύτητας με τα χέρια(ο ένας περπατούσε με τα χέρια και ο άλλος του κρατούσε τα πόδια), χρονομετρούσαμε πόση ώρα επιπλέουμε τρία άτομα πάνω σ' ένα φουσκωτό κροκόδειλο μέχρι να αναποδογυρίσει... Υπέροχη μέρα.
Είχε την τεράστια πανσέληνο, μια φοβερή ξαστεριά -κεντημένος ο ουρανός απ' άκρη σ' άκρη με ολόφωτα άστρα- και το αποκορύφωμα μια βροχή αστεριών -ποτέ ξανά δεν είχα δει πεφταστέρι.
Αξέχαστη μέρα.
ΑπάντησηΔιαγραφή
Απαντήσεις

Προσθήκη σχολίου

Εγγραφή σε: Σχόλια ανάρτησης (Atom)

Daemons

The devil's at his strongest while we're looking the other way, like a program running in the background silently, while we're busy doing other sh1t. Daemons, they call them. They perform action without user interaction. Monitoring, logging, notifications. Primal urges, repressed memories, unconscious habits. They're always there, always active. We can try to be right, we can try to be good. We can try to make a difference, but it's all bullshit. 'Cause intentions are irrelevant. They don't drive us. Daemons do. And me? I've got more than most.

Said...

I think everybody’s weird. We should all celebrate our individuality and not be embarrassed or ashamed of it. - Johnny Depp
It’s better to burn out than to fade away. – Kurt Cobain
Who said nights were for sleep? – Marilyn Monroe
We only see two things in people, what we want to see and what they want to show us. – Dexter Morgan
To have been loved so deeply, even thought the person who loved us is gone, will give us some protection forever. – J.K. Rowling
Love me when I least deserve it, because that’s when I really need it. – Swedish proverb
Truth is everybody’s gonna hurt you. You just gotta find the ones worth suffering for. – Bob Marley
I think a lot but I don’t say much. – Anne Frank
You don’t get another chance. Life is no Nintendo game. – Eminem
Have you ever noticed the saddest person always has the most beautiful smile? – Kid Cudi
Never think about something wrong you did in the past, always look forward with your head high; Have no regrets – Jared Leto
Just because you failed once doesn’t mean you’re going to fail at everything. – Marilyn Monroe
Whatever you are, be a good one. – Abraham Lincoln
Out of suffering have emerged the strongest souls, the most massive characters are sealed with scars. – Khalil Gibran
There’s nothing wrong with you. There’s a lot wrong with the world you live in. – Chris Colfer
Always, always, always believe in yourself, because if you don’t, then who will sweetie? – Marilyn Monroe
I desire the things which will destroy me in the end. – Sylvia Plath
My darling you can’t see it, can you? How like the moon you are. Both of you so timid in yourselves; hiding pieces from the world. Then, there are those rare moments when you both are full, and it becomes so hard to look away. You are beautiful. – Alexandria Drzewiecki
It is only with the heart that one see rightly; What is essential is invisible to the eyes. – Le Petit Prince
You don’t need religion to have morals. If you can’t determine right from wrong, then you lack empathy, not religion – Anonymous
In dreams we enter a world that is entirely our own. – Albus Dumbledore
Wanting to be someone else is a waste of the person you are. – Kurt Cobain
Nobody dies a virgin. Life fucks us all. – Kurt Cobain
Quiet people have the loudest minds. – Stephen Hawking
I believe whatever doesn’t kill you simply makes you stranger. – Heath Ledger
Having tattoos..It’s a way of suffering for the things that mean a lot to you. – Amy Winehouse
Humans have a knack for choosing precisely the things that are worst for them. – J.K Rowling
One person’s craziness is another person’s reality. – Tim Burton
People cry not because they’re weak. It’s because they’ve been strong for too long. – Johnny Depp
Monsters are real, ghosts are real too. They live inside us, and sometimes, they win. – Stephen King
I’d rather be hated for who I am, than loved for who I am not. – Kurt Cobain
Thoughts can leave deeper scarring than almost anything else. – J.K. Rowling
Hell is empty. All the devils are here. – William Shakespeare
The scariest monsters are the ones that lurk within our souls. – Edgar Allan Poe
Life is nothing if you’re not obsessed. – John Waters
Drink, fuck and smoke plenty of cigarettes. – Charles Bukowski
Don’t put your happiness in other people’s hands. They’ll drop it. They’ll drop it every time. – C. Barzak
I love people who make me laugh. I honestly think it’s the thing I like most, to laugh. It cures a multitude of ills. It’s probably the most important thing in a person. – Audrey Hepburn
Maybe we feel empty because we leave pieces of ourselves in everything we used to love. – R.M. Drake
You don’t have a Soul. You are a Soul. You have a body. - C.S. Lewis
Despite all my external wounds, my heart was probably gonna take the longest to heal. And I was tired of the pain. – Jenna Hammilton
Sometimes it feels better not to talk at all, about anything, to anyone. – Walter White
No matter where we go, we take ourselves and our damage with us. So is home a place we run to or is it a place we run from? – Dexter Morgan
I’m not sure of what I am. I just know there is something dark in me. And I hide it. – Dexter Morgan
Things change. Doesn’t mean they get better. – Dr House
If someone tells you to change yourself, tell them to go fuck themselves. – Ed Sheeran

For you...

I'm so tired of being here
Suppressed by all my childish fears
I would give the very breath from my chest
To give you all the things that my mind couldn't bear
And if you have to leave
I wish that you would just leave
'Cause your presence still lingers here
And it won't leave me alone

These wounds won't seem to heal
This pain is just too real
There's just too much that time cannot erase

When you cried I'd wipe away all of your tears
When you'd scream I'd fight away all of your fears
I held your hand through all of these years
But you still have
All of me

You used to captivate me by your resonating light
Now I'm bound by the life you left behind
Your face it haunts
My once pleasant dreams
Your voice it chased away
All the sanity in me

These wounds won't seem to heal
This pain is just too real
There's just too much that time cannot erase

When you cried I'd wipe away all of your tears
When you'd scream I'd fight away all of your fears
I held your hand through all of these years
But you still have
All of me

I'd love to walk away and pull myself out of the rain
But I can't leave without you
I'd love to live without the constant fear and endless doubt
But I can't live without you
When you cried I'd wipe away all of your tears
When you'd scream I'd fight away all of your fears
I held your hand through all of these years
But you still have
All of me

- My Immortal, Evanescence

To my beloved sister...

Aren't you somethin' to admire?
'Cause your shine is somethin' like a mirror
And I can't help but notice
You reflect in this heart of mine
If you ever feel alone and
The glare makes me hard to find
Just know that I'm always parallel on the other side

'Cause with your hand in my hand and a pocket full of soul
I can tell you there's no place we couldn't go
Just put your hand on the glass
I'll be tryin' to pull you through
You just gotta be strong

'Cause I don't wanna lose you now
I'm lookin' right at the other half of me
The vacancy that sat in my heart
Is a space that now you hold
Show me how to fight for now
And I'll tell you, baby, it was easy
Comin' back here to you once I figured it out
You were right here all along

It's like you're my mirror
My mirror staring back at me
I couldn't get any bigger
With anyone else beside of me
And now it's clear as this promise
That we're making two reflections into one
'Cause it's like you're my mirror
My mirror staring back at me, staring back at me

Aren't you somethin', an original
'Cause it doesn't seem merely assembled
And I can't help but stare, 'cause
I see truth somewhere in your eyes
I can't ever change without you
You reflect me, I love that about you
And if I could, I would look at us all the time

'Cause with your hand in my hand and a pocket full of soul
I can tell you there's no place we couldn't go
Just put your hand on the glass
I'll be tryin' to pull you through
You just gotta be strong

-Mirrors, Justin Timberlake

Aren't you somethin' to admire, cause your shine is somethin' like a mirror
And I can't help but notice, you reflect in this heart of mine
If you ever feel alone and the glare makes me hard to find
Just know that I'm always parallell on the other side

Fallen Angels

Τρίτη 18 Μαρτίου 2014

Full Moon

8 σχόλια:

Επισκέψεις

Blogger Academy Awards by Λίζα

LIEBSTER BLOG AWARD

Παλαιότερες αναρτήσεις

Said...

For you...

To my beloved sister...